I either want to make you smile or make you think.

But both is preferred. 

I bet you never thought that you would be pulled by a cool ass nerd.

I dont have time for basic bitches, like they say thats for the birds.

They broke my heart with their broken English, 

I cant even understand them, their diction is slurred.

I peeped you workin hard and I didnt want to disturb

But to let you go another day without you knowing how I feel

would be absolutely absurd.

I beat myself up when I make you upset and Im not even a fighter.

I would stay up with you all night and pull and all nighter -

to study you and get to know you better.

I wanna know what ticks you off so I can turn you on.

You already turn me on, see you make my day brighter.

Haha yea I know that was cheesy, but you got me cheasin.

 Baby I believe that we click for a reason.

I pulled you close to whisper in your ear 

so my words could run through your mind

to let you know that you had been runnin through mine.

I think about you all the time and day dream about our possible future

damn the possibilities.

I know that Im the one for you, but I dont even know if you’re feelin me.

I would like to feel you mentally and physically.

Ask you how your day went as I rub your back. 

See Im a firm believer that if I can stimulate your mind

then I can stimulate your body.

I’ll test you then ask you how you want it kindly.

I try to hold your hand but it goes through, and I look at you blindly.

I rub my eyes and my vision is clear.

Then I realize that you were never here.

Again I’ve let my fantasies become my reality.

I kick myself in the ass 

as I look at the clock 

and calculated the hours passed.

Damn this paper is due and I’ve got so much to do

because again I’ve spent the day thinking about you.

It’s a mistake to use language that attributes your happiness, unhappiness or any other feeling to an external source. Actually, no one can make you feel anything. It’s simply not possible for anyone else to create and emotion in you. Emotions are your personal response to an outside act and are within your power to control. Using language that continues the illusion that outside forces create your emotional reactions to life only serves to strengthen your belief that others can “make you.”

Last Night Was The Last Time

Dark Frames To Cover My Shame

Sunday Morning Im Cleansing My Hands

My Defeats Only Repeat Because Again I Said I’ll Never Do It Again. 

we’ll feel the same way in the morning…

Lately I’ve been talking to God a lot in my sleep. Im tossing and turing, my diction is slurred and I mumble. I just hope he hears me….

I was impressed at hello but you had me at good bye

I’ve never wanted you more than when you said you had to go

I said “Baby don’t leave, I‘m willing to put in work” as I rolled up my sleeve

I was impressed at hello but you had me at good bye

You turned around and turned down the switch, 

You look better when the lights are low

Nothing but the glow from the moonlight reveals your bare body to my sight

The beauty of your body takes me back

Back further than you almost walked out leaving me wanting more

Back further when you first walked through the door

Back to when you first said hello

When you gave me a chill

Its like that first time is reenacted

My mind is racing, ugh I got distracted

Back to where we are, I want to be close enough so I can feel what you feel

Close enough that I can feel the frame of your figure; with my fingers I trace

Close enough that I’m confused if I’m hearing your or my heart race

I feel like we were meant to be 

Because the way are bodies are intertwined and fit together like we’re a puzzle piece

Im not afraid to give you a piece of me 

Nothing is questioned or thought over twice

We just do what we feel in that moment

And it just happens to feel so right 

Baby, lets not start off at the peak

The thrill of the climb is the best part

You’ve had me weak from the start

I don’t want this moment to fade

My heart drops as the rising sun casts a shade through the window

You will always have me at good bye but nothing is better than when you turn over to me and say hello